Greetings...

Today is a good day...I will hopefuly get to see my dad today...he had not been very well over the last wek or so...he had to go back to hospital because the chemo made him very sick...I think I had told you that they had stoped the chemo...well they had'nt...they just delayed it because of the effect it was having...

I got a phone call from my dad yesterday...it was so good to hear his voice...he told me that if he was feeling up to it I could go and see him at home...

So this day will be an Up day...and from the beginning of all this I have noticed that there will be more Down days than Up...

I pray that through time the Up days will out wiegh the Down days...when I see my dad today...I will say to him that even though he has cancer and that the end result is not good...I want to tell him that he can be strong enough to fight for what he is passionate about...and for the things he loves in his life...

I posted a message on one of my forums asking a question about dealing with death...the replys from one person said...if ppl are ment to leave us then it is their time to go...

You know a person could have a really bad car acciedent...and servie...so even though he has cancer...and the docotors say there is nothing they can do to help cure it...if my dad is ment to live for longer than what time they have said he is going to then he will...if the great universal spirit...my dads karma...decides that it time for him to leave us...then I guess that will happen...

Today is an Up day...

Greetings to you who is reading this...

I have had an ok weekend...I went to mymums to see my Nan...and my Uncle Simon and Antie Vicky were there to...I have'nt seen them for about a year...

I have mentioned that my dad is dieing of Lung Cancer...well my Uncle Simon and Antie Vicky used to have 3 daughters...Maddie...Jessica...and Emma...

Sadly Jessica died of Lukiemia...about 2 years ago...so when I told my Uncle Simon and Antie Vicky...I am sure that they can sympathis with me and what I am to go through with my dad...

My dad is back in hospital...he went in on Friday...because the chemo had made him really sick...before he had the chemo...he was eating and drinking...then when he started the chemo he was ok for a day...and then he was being sick again...being sick a lot...So the doctors are going to leave the chemo for a bit until my dad feels better and he is able to eat regualy...

That is it for now...if you have any comments then please post them...I am very open to advise on dealing with this very painful experiance that is happing in my life right no...

Blessings to you all...and may you always be kept safe from all pain and sadness...

Una...

How do I feel today...well I'm not sure...

Funny thing is I have always tried to have a diary...and when I find one that is nice...I never use it...but for some reason I feel that having this online dairy is better...plus I love to type...and I love using the internet...

I haven't spoken to my dad today...I dont know if he has come home yet or not...I will make some calls later today...

Well this is all for now...

May you be kept safe from all pain's and anger's...

Una Voce Spiritwarrior...

Greetings to you all...

I have some very sad news...I found out on the 16th July 2004...that my dad has lung cancer...on the 9th August...2004...he had a cat scan and we have found that they can't operate...if they do operate...they could spread it...

He is due to have a bone scan and a brain scan...you see with lung cancer paitents...they get secondry cancer...in the brain...bone and liver...

I hope and pray that my dad can be given the right treament to help him have no pain...and for him to be able to have more time with us...he has a new son of 2yrs...and he has only been married for 6 yrs...6 yrs ago he had a brain hemerage...which he came back from with flying colors...but this time death has got his grip on my dad...and there is no escape...

Anyone who is reading this please i ask you to send prayer and healing energy out to my dad...so that he may be able to live the rest of the time he has left with out pain and with out fear in his heart of leaving the ones he loves behind...

If any of your loved one's are in pain or in need of healing then i send it out to you and the one's you love...

Blessings to you all...